Inferior Dreams!

My mind says I am inferior! I am not competent to x, y, z! I started sobbing, depressing myself.

When I ask back whom I am inferior of? Where do you think I have to improve? How do you want me to be?

It says to all, in all areas, like every other!

It compares me with every one, for everything. Anyway I should be inferior to somebody in one or other things. But it doesn’t accept it. It compares with all possible.

I see my mom in new way. She compares me with others. Whether that guy is of my class or a level above or even below; she never cares about it. She needs their excellence in me. It has become so habitual that when my mom took back seat my mind started playing her part.

There is other guy within me who tries to help me and protect me from my mind. So he drags me apart from the reality.

He takes me to the dream world, where I am the superior. I would be the hero; all others are inferior to me. I am confident, competent, and would be in position where I can take charge of others.

I love to be there, and slowly start living there; I am totally isolated from real life.

When I realize that I am in my dreams and woke up I see myself left behind and inferior. Again my mind starts blaming me!

Can I start dreaming again to catch up with me?